Grrrrrrr....................

Ok, well I am very bummed. I missed John's IM 3 times yesterday! That just made me so sad! On a good note tho, I did get to talk to him two days ago on the phone. I have not done that in about three weeks! He goes to BIAP (Baghdad International Airport.) 3 weeks from tomorrow! Oh my gosh I am getting so excited! The kids have been acting like brats lately and driving me crazy. Sometimes I get so angry that I was left to deal with all of this crap on my own. I miss having my partner here to help me make decisions, or just to run referee for me. It is a very hard, lonely time for me here. I long for the day that he comes home for good. Part of me is so scared of what we will be like, and how it will all work for us. I know that these fears are normal, just at I know that he has the same ones. I guess we will all see what we see next June. As for R&R, I don't think there will be enuf time for us to really get into any kind of groove. It is more about him resting, and me taking care of him. I know, I spoil him sometimes, but I think he has earned it!