Today is our Christmas Eve. The kids are very excited to get to open presents early. I am sad because it marks the end of our time with John. I feel so very blessed to have been able to have had him home with us, there are a lot of wives who will never get that again. There is a part of me that wants him to just get this deployment over with, and the other part of me does not want to let him go. He is safe here, and we made it this far, now I have to send him back to a war zone where he is in danger every minute of every day. I pray for God to protect him, and that he sees fit to bring him home to me once again. The fear creeps in a little more each day, and the waiting is so hard. But, on the bright side of things, if there is one in a deployment, is that we will only have 6 more months of this until he is home for at least a year and a half. I added a few new pics to the slideshow. Enjoy!